Orphaned children from around the world have been seeking answers to the same ancient questions for as long as civilization has existed. In the hierarchal scale of human needs, learning something about our ancestors is an important building block for creating a true sense of self-identity. Children have a whimsical understanding and curiosity about the past. Over time their feelings grow from an emotional desire to understand where they came from into a deep, primal, psychological need for a true self-identity that will finally make sense out of their disrupted lives. In some cases, knowing something about family medical history is very important for medical diagnosis and research.
I spent my childhood quietly wondering and longing for something intangible that was missing in my life. I never gave up hope or stopped scanning the universe for my biological parents because I was confident that someday I would find them. The ghostly image I had of my birth mother was something that haunted me throughout my childhood. Even though I had never seen her face, I often thought of her. I instinctually began as a wee life longing for the warmth and protection of my birth mother to survive. The umbilical cord was physically severed, but the esoteric spiritual connection that bound me to my birth mother was heightened by our unnatural separation. Maybe I possessed a biological gene in my DNA that drove me to succeed. Using my sixth sense, I never gave up scanning the universe for esoteric signals emanating from her essence. I used intuition to connect in every way possible with what was intuitively familiar because I was subconsciously longing to be with her. I wanted to know why my birth parents gave me up for adoption, my family medical history, and something about my cultural heritage. I wanted to be with others who shared my same flesh and blood because I was curious to know if we looked alike, had similar habits, or personal preferences. Ultimately, my drive to find my roots was spiritual and inspired by God.